To draw the lens in just a tiny bit, I want to look more closely at discernment as a spiritual gift. I’ve been preoccupied with having a retreat day soon, but last night I was asking myself what agenda I have in seeking a retreat.
First, let me say that I do try to practice the discipline of retreat once in a while. Spiritual disciplines are an entirely different topic, but I need to give you some context for this one. The discipline of retreat is one that is not practiced nearly enough, in my opinion. We live in a world possessed of such incredibly diverse and seductive means of distraction from the Lord that I believe retreat to be essential, but I find, like many, that I’m just not sure how to go about it. Oh, I have some means – going ‘up the mountain’ literally is just one, long walks another – but what to do on days when you have to remain indoors or simply have no inner room into which you can retreat? And what defines a retreat?
Digression aside, I find that I’m in need of retreat in order to refocus myself, to find out where I should be directing my attentions and abilities, and to simply withdraw from things for a while. The reason for this? I’ve become unsure of things, as we all do and as we all must overcome.
Where this leads me, however, is to this: Is a retreat going to be serving my purposes or God’s? Or, in other words, what expectations must I have in order to retreat for the purposes of discernment? Certainly, I have questions that I want to pray about, but am I praying with an expectation to hear what God has to say or what I want Him to say?
Discernment, I think, works the same way. I think discernment, in its most relevant sense, is finding the will of the Lord in the circumstances which He has engineered for you. If you are gifted in discernment, I think you have the ability to do this without thinking too much about it. You can test and approve very easily, and Christ-mindedness comes more naturally to you. I could be wrong; probably am, when it comes to gifts. But that’s where I think discernment operates in retreat. The difficult point is to come out of retreat, or away from a decision where discernment is required ready to act on what you’ve learned. And I think this is one of the central purposes of prayer, as well; or at least, prayer for guidance. We have a responsibility to do what we’re told, and not to simply toss it aside.
Blessings;
Christ-bearer.